Friday, May 02, 2008
Recently bad things just keep coming. bad things keep crushing onto me. And it really freaks me out ! I hate those nasty words and i just don't know why am i using those words out of the sudden . Can someone please stop me from saying those words. I find it so rude and it's horrible to use such words. I've got a letter from school. I've got 11 dp ! 9 more to go and I'm being expel. Worse of all, i've got 10 dp for nothing ?! I attend school. and i got 5 dp ? Another 5 dp i got was because i was sick and i went home to get my medications and went back to school cause i've got PMS lesson. I filled the yellow form and i still get dp ! If they don't entertain yellow form, for what shit is the yellow form for ? Is it just to waste my pen ink, my time writing it and my energy ! Full of craps ! Stupid school and freaking school rules ! The other 1 dp i've got cause i was late twice. School is pissing me off ! Giving dp like giving out shopping discounts coupons/vouchers ?! I'm gonna tell them off tomorrow once i get to see them ! Seriously for no reason i just got 10 dp ? Even if you do have reason for giving me just tell me ! I only know i didn't skip freaking school for nothing ! Unless i've MC ! It really piss me off when i saw the letter that the school sent. Alright, enough of that freaking school/letter.Uncle was admitted to the hospital. Daddy told me the illness. So i'm super sad over it. Now, time is so important to him. My grandmother really sad over it. Hopefully she won't breakdown. I don't know what to do. Just got to pray hard that nothing happens. PRAY HARD !
Boy still ignoring me. So i guess i know what he means already. I'm sick of tearing all night long. Whenever i miss you i just tear. My mood is affected so much that cause me to have bad moods. I almost scolded my sister for nothing. Ignoring my parent when they ask what's wrong with me. I've been find things to do. Making me busy feels better ? So guess i've planned to take up another part time job and back to my modelling ? Once i go back to my modellingm, i'll have assignments for 2 months ! Themes shoots, roadshows,runways etc . Sounds real busy and tiring. But i guess it's better ? Hopefully it makes me forget about you ? Although in the past it doesn't helps me to forget jason but hopefully this time it will make me forget about you (E_g_ne). How i wish i can tell you how i feel about you. Don't you know how much i miss you ? How much i love you ? That day i should have held your hands real tight. Now that you're mia/ignore me. I don't know what to do. Just know that you've hurt me. Boy, you have just walked out of my dream and left me with an empty and hurtful dream. ):
-The pain that you inflict on me is indescribable .
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